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Judith Frizlen's avatar

What a moving and beautiful story! It brought tears to my eyes and much love to my heart. Your ability to articulate this loss with such clarity evoked a sense of grief for all the lost babies, dreams, and opportunities. But what strikes me most is that you retained the ability to love and to feel deeply the embodied experience of loss.

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Amanda Osowski's avatar

That “sense of grief for all the lost babies, dreams and opportunities” - it’s the thing that I carry with me

In part or in whole every minute of every day. It’s the thing I most want to write about so other people who experience it don’t feel as along as I did. As I have. As I sometimes still do.

As to “retain(ing) the ability to love and to feel deeply the embodied experience of loss” — I think I owe a lot of that to how I’ve chosen to approach trauma processing and the miracle of ketamine assisted psychotherapy. It’s still incredibly intense, raw in some places and numb in others, but I’m a work in progress, and only one year out.

Thank you so much for your thoughtful and meaningful comment - I truly truly appreciate it.

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Rae Palmer's avatar

Thank you for sharing such a beautiful, deeply personal piece. My heart is broken for you. I'm so sorry.

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Amanda Osowski's avatar

Thank you, so so very much, for reading, for honoring Rowan, and for your compassion. I’m so grateful.

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