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Ruhie Vaidya's avatar

Amanda, this is so tenderly, achingly and lovingly written. As a woman, as a doctor, and as someone who was in an eerily similar situation 8 years ago… I felt every word to my core. I too lost a first trimester pregnancy in this way - dropped into the toilet bowl when we were over to a relative’s place for dinner - but I never thought of it in the way you’ve described here. Thank you for sharing your sorry and breaking the silence around a topic that is sadly viewed as taboo. My heart truly goes out to you ❤️‍🩹🫂

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Amanda Osowski's avatar

Thank you so much for your kind and tender words. I’m truly so sorry for your loss, and I’m grateful you felt seen through my story. I’ve never connected with anyone who had a story like mine - which is why I share it in the way o do, so it can find the next woman and make her feel less alone. It’s incredible how shared experiences, no matter how difficult, can create connection and comfort. I know how isolating it can feel to hold these kinds of memories close, especially when the world often shies away from talking about them. I’m honored that my words resonated with you, and I deeply appreciate your willingness to share your story here. Sending you love and gentleness as you continue to navigate this path. You are not alone. ❤️‍🩹

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Kristina Adams Waldorf, MD's avatar

Painfully beautiful writing. I am so sorry for your loss. As an obstetrician, I have seen other women lose their pregnancies. Heard their screams. Held their hands in my office as they mourned. I see your pain.

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Amanda Osowski's avatar

Thank you, for what you do and for how you hold our loss stories. I never got the physical care or support I needed when Noah died and I’ll always be hurt by it. Our MFM team looked at us like we did something wrong when we gave them the babies for post-Mortem testing.

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Kristina Adams Waldorf, MD's avatar

That's terrible. I understand your loss on a professional level. I would be happy to interview you on my Substack if you would like to talk about it. You did nothing wrong.

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Amanda Osowski's avatar

That opportunity would be an honor

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Kristina Adams Waldorf, MD's avatar

I will DM you.

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