The Miracle that Broke Me
To and for R, now and always.
We were together just to be No waiting, no plans, just you and me. No whispered prayers, no desperate pleas Just love that flowed with natural ease. No needles, no labs, no counting, no waiting, Just you and I, like back when we were dating.
Skin against skin, laughter, and love We weren't thinking about wishes, or begging up above. We'd closed the door & turned out the light. We'd whispered close and murmured goodnight. Somehow, impossibly, against everything we knew to be true In that moment, a miracle happened to me and to you.
A heartbeat where none should have grown, a light where darkness stood alone. For once, my body did not break it held a dream, a chance to wake. For once the odds bent in our hand, and hope was something we could stand.
But fleeting joy is razor-sharp and what began immediately fell apart. A miracle not meant to stay, a love so deeply that slipped too soon away. Rowan, my almost, my near, my dream Proof that fate is not always what it seems.
I wasn't broken open until you left, after almost bleeding out, I stand here lost and bereft. If we knew it was possible, we clearly would've tried, if we knew about you sooner, maybe I wouldn't have almost died.
A story written, torn in two a love so real, yet never grew. And now I bear this endless ache, a miracle that came to break. And in just over one weeks time, this body will say goodbye To the place that briefly held several why's.
To the three tiniest losses we felt To the one who grew up and now makes my heart melt, To Noah, Victoria & Rowan - our babies in the stars My body will forever be "ours" I only know I love you still, I always have, and I always will.
And to my soulmate, my anchor, my best friend, I know you've always looked at this moment differently than the end. You see a beginning, without pain, without fear I hope that I can lean into that as the timing comes near. I'm so sorry that my heart is broken I just hope you know how much love remains in words unspoken.
I'll try to trust, to stand, to feel, to cope, And walk beside you on the paths of hope. The future for us looks differently than we'd planned with dreams once held now grains of sand. Yet through the losses, and loves embrace, I'll try to believe we'll find our new story in time and in space.
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